Thursday, July 26, 2012
Anxious to Forgive Anything
Jon was fighting tears. "Maybe I have to believe that somebody who died from drugs can go to heaven to be able to live with what happened," he said. "But I know that Dougie had a close relationship with Jesus when he was little. Even when he got into his rebellious period, there were times when he would talk about God. In fact..." He took a deep breath. "After Dougie died we found drug paraphernalia and other things that, had we searched and found them earlier, would have tipped us off to how serious his problems were. But... we didn't, so . . . Anyway, we found a diary, too. Dougie really liked to write, and apparently he only expressed his innermost thoughts and feelings on paper. It was hard to read it and realize how much he'd been hurting before he died, and how blind we were to his pain. But throughout the pages we found him crying out to God for help, pouring out his heart to the only One he seemed able to trust. Just before he died, he had written out a prayer asking for God's forgiveness. I have to believe that God heard that prayer and that our Dougie is safe with him now."
Ben continued to look into Jon's eyes. "So," he said finally, "you think God can even forgive something as bad as drugs." "Definitely,” said Jon, “God not only can but does. He's much more anxious to forgive us than we are to ask Him for it. And there's nothing—absolutely nothing—that He won't forgive."